Tea with Milk and Sugar

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Since I have oxen, and this Mom’s been out of it, I had to post a pic of our mountain of clean laundry.  Yeah, it’s clean.  Joseph Jr. did let me know very graciously that this heap thing is ok but he’d prefer if we at least put it in groups (shirts, socks, etc.) so he could find his things.  It was hilarious.  His mind thought Mommy is just trying this new method (as opposed to the old way of folding and putting clothes away) but I’ll nicely nudge her towards organization.  So tomorrow I’m going to help him pull out his clothes from the pile and put it in a basket and let him organize.  Tonight he was excited by that.  Should be cute.

I blog mostly as a journal so anyone that happens to read can skip anything at anytime of course. 

Joseph Jr. is growing up!  Laying in bed with him he said he had a lot to ask and talk about.  Things he’s just been mulling over.   All of these he asked with great concern and stress.  So glad I took the time to talk to him.

“Mommy I see that the wall is green but what if what I see as green you see as purple!?” I remember thinking this very thing as a kid.  Anyone else think these thoughts?  I assured him we all see green as green and left it at that.  No need to boggle his mind.

“Mommy I know what an egg is but what is the stuff in the egg we eat?” (gingerly explained this as we eat a lot of eggs, went well.  Little non-vegetarian self-preserver in fact pointed out we should always save some eggs to grow so we can have more eggs and more chicken)

Lastly, “Mommy I know we’ve talked about this but how long is forever!?” I finally had a somewhat satisfying answer to this one.  He wrestles with it a lot!  I told him that it means we don’t have to say goodbye because we will have a forever.  Somethings end and have nothing further but people can have forevers.  Happy with that. 

When to make decisions…?  My smart husband often talks about the wisdom of not making a crucial decision when you are not in a good state of mind.  So true.  I have a reality 95% of the time that is peaceable, forward-thinking, hope-filled.  Then the other 5% reality occurs late at night if I’m too tired thinking about the responsibilities that await, or if I’m ill and can’t imagine functioning, or if any stress is just looming.  This 5% of the time reality is not where I reside and not the state to make choices in.  Which is why we are expecting our 4th baby right now.  Thankfully our family is growing, thankfully this past week of all day morning-sickness (5%) is past and I can look forward to a new life coming.  But oy vey, when you are in that 5% you just need Jesus!  “I need you Jesus, come to my rescue”… was my tune.  My friend Kelly often gives credit to God for reminding her, and keeping her in a state where she knows she needs Him.  She knows she can’t do it on her own, she fully relys on His help.  I’m not as good at remembering that, happily and naively going in my strength until I collapse.  I’m learning and Violet has helped.